Epistle To Augusta
by George Gordon, Lord Byron
(Composed: July 1816)
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- My Sister! my sweet Sister! if a name
- Dearer and purer were, it should be thine.
- Mountains and seas divide us, but I claim
- No tears, but tenderness to answer mine:
- Go where I will, to me thou art the same
- A lovd regret which I would not resign.
- There yet are two things in my destiny
- A world to roam through, and a home with thee.
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- The first were nothinghad I still the last,
- It were the haven of my happiness;
- But other claims and other ties thou hast,
- And mine is not the wish to make them less.
- A strange doom is thy fathers sons, and past
- Recalling, as it lies beyond redress;
- Reversd for him our grandsires fate of yore,
- He had no rest at sea, nor I on shore.
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- If my inheritance of storms hath been
- In other elements, and on the rocks
- Of perils, overlookd or unforeseen,
- I have sustaind my share of worldly shocks,
- The fault was mine; nor do I seek to screen
- My errors with defensive paradox;
- I have been cunning in mine overthrow,
- The careful pilot of my proper woe.
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- Mine were my faults, and mine be their reward.
- My whole life was a contest, since the day
- That gave me being, gave me that which marrd
- The gift,a fate, or will, that walkd astray;
- And I at times have found the struggle hard,
- And thought of shaking off my bonds of clay:
- But now I fain would for a time survive,
- If but to see what next can well arrive.
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- Kingdoms and empires in my little day
- I have outlivd, and yet I am not old;
- And when I look on this, the petty spray
- Of my own years of troubles, which have rolld
- Like a wild bay of breakers, melts away:
- SomethingI know not whatdoes still uphold
- A spirit of slight patience;not in vain,
- Even for its own sake, do we purchase Pain.
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- Perhaps the workings of defiance stir
- Within meor, perhaps, a cold despair
- Brought on when ills habitually recur,
- Perhaps a kinder clime, or purer air,
- (For even to this may change of soul refer,
- And with light armour we may learn to bear),
- Have taught me a strange quiet, which was not
- The chief companion of a calmer lot.
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- I feel almost at times as I have felt
- In happy childhood; trees, and flowers, and brooks,
- Which do remember me of where I dwelt
- Ere my young mind was sacrificd to books,
- Come as of yore upon me, and can melt
- My heart with recognition of their looks;
- And even at moments I could think I see
- Some living thing to lovebut none like thee.
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- Here are the Alpine landscapes which create
- A fund for contemplation;to admire
- Is a brief feeling of a trivial date;
- But something worthier do such scenes inspire:
- Here to be lonely is not desolate,
- For much I view which I could most desire,
- And, above all, a Lake I can behold
- Lovelier, not dearer, than our own of old.
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- Oh that thou wert but with me!but I grow
- The fool of my own wishes, and forget
- The solitude which I have vaunted so
- Has lost its praise in this but one regret;
- There may be others which I less may show;
- I am not of the plaintive mood, and yet
- I feel an ebb in my philosophy,
- And the tide rising in my alterd eye.
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- I did remind thee of our own dear Lake,
- By the old Hall which may be mine no more.
- Lemans is fair; but think not I forsake
- The sweet remembrance of a dearer shore:
- Sad havoc Time must with my memory make
- Ere that or thou can fade these eyes before;
- Though, like all things which I have lovd, they are
- Resignd for ever, or divided far.
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- The world is all before me; I but ask
- Of Nature that with which she will comply
- It is but in her Summers sun to bask,
- To mingle with the quiet of her sky,
- To see her gentle face without a mask,
- And never gaze on it with apathy.
- She was my early friend, and now shall be
- My sistertill I look again on thee.
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- I can reduce all feelings but this one;
- And that I would not;for at length I see
- Such scenes as those wherein my life begun
- The earliesteven the only paths for me
- Had I but sooner learnt the crowd to shun,
- I had been better than I now can be;
- The Passions which have torn me would have slept;
- I had not sufferd, and thou hadst not wept.
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- With false Ambition what had I to do?
- Little with Love, and least of all with Fame;
- And yet they came unsought, and with me grew,
- And made me all which they can makea Name.
- Yet this was not the end I did pursue;
- Surely I once beheld a nobler aim.
- But all is overI am one the more
- To baffled millions which have gone before.
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- And for the future, this worlds future may
- From me demand but little of my care;
- I have outlivd myself by many a day,
- Having survivd so many things that were;
- My years have been no slumber, but the prey
- Of ceaseless vigils; for I had the share
- Of life which might have filld a century,
- Before its fourth in time had passd me by.
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- And for the remnant which may be to come
- I am content; and for the past I feel
- Not thankless,for within the crowded sum
- Of struggles, Happiness at times would steal,
- And for the present, I would not benumb
- My feelings further.Nor shall I conceal
- That with all this I still can look around,
- And worship Nature with a thought profound.
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- For thee, my own sweet sister, in thy heart
- I know myself secure, as thou in mine;
- We were and areI am, even as thou art
- Beings who neer each other can resign;
- It is the same, together or apart,
- From Lifes commencement to its slow decline
- We are entwindlet Death come slow or fast,
- The tie which bound the first endures the last!
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